あいじなに Me!

Haven’t posted any pictures for so long so here goes!
includes from my UCSI AMIGOS PARA SIEMPRE Ball held in Hotel Istana last Friday, 25.5.07

Amigos Para Siempre

Me, Sheila and Richelle

me and Ranjeetha

Me and Andrew

Derek, Kenny, Sheila and Nick

Me and Nick

Me, Sheila and Richelle

Me, Richelle and Derek

I want this kind of wardrobe…in Hotel Istana…so cool that you can sit in it

Me and Sophia

People on the dance floor

People on the dance floor (2)

Cameron (25th & 26th April)

my sis, Fatiah and me

Gorgeous rose…taken at night right after the rain

I have no idea what this flower’s name is…but it’s gorgeous

me and Fatiah at BOH Tea Centre (Starbucks in Cameron, minus Caramel Macchiatto, but still great)

The Waterfall of Lata Iskandar…on the way to Cameron

Random pictures from everywhere

Dato’ Baginda, the deer that my uncle rear…he’s huge and smart…and adorable and superbly love by my uncle

My uncle’s orchard…

Baby Panda on my lap

Chilli…doing her thing…:P…so cute

Baby Panda…posing for the camera…he’s so adorable

Tenshi…looking at the flying curtain

me in front of the Putrajaya courthouse

That’s the end fellas!

let’s talk about Gossip Girl…
not a big fan…but as I mentioned before I have all the 10 books…
because one thing about me…I am a collector…
and plus it’s pretty neat…the story that is
get a glimpse of how the Upper East Sider live their lives

so I’ve seen the preview of Gossip Girl the drama
looks very interesting and the casts are promising
Chace Crawford will be playing Nate Archibald ….
if anyone watched the Covenant you’ll remember seeing him there as Tyler…
one of the sons of Ipswich…not sure if that’s how you spell it
Penn Badgely will be playing Daniel Humphrey…he’s the guy who played Scott Tucker in John Tucker Must Die…
Leighton Meester as Blair…she’s so cute…and yes definitely have the whole Blair-ness
Blake Lively as Serena….I’ll say she’s okay…not that she’s not hot…just that the Serena I imagined was alot…hotter
and has the wholesome package and somewhat of an angel-like appearance…
what am I saying? me and my vivid and super creative imagination…:P
Taylor Momsen as Jenny…she’s the girl in The Grinch…remember the little tot, Cindy Lou Who?…
and the rest….I have no idea….

am very excited to watch it…

currently downloading loads of stuff
my cousin asked me to download some songs…English songs
which I rarely do…so it’s kinda cool…for a change…of all the Japanese songs
of how I Japanized myself…in a good way of course
and no I am not a Japo wannabe
I just happen to like the music, the culture, and the language….that’s about all
and maybe the superbly pretty boys?…:P

Just finished watching Liar Game episode 5…
I seriously feel like slapping the female character of how an idiot she is…
just the character…I have nothing against the actress…
since Touda Erika played Raito’s gf in Death Note…I am quite fond of her
Is it me or I think Matsuda Shota is just…so adorable….
it’s funny that only recently I am able to remember his name properly…
because before I knew him as Nishikado Soujiro in Hana Yori Dango…
yerp he was my favourite character in Hanadan…
not really a fan of the others…
but I love love love Hanazawa Rui….as in Hanazawa Rui the character itself…
not Oguri Shun….Rui….and he plays the violin….drool-worthy…for me that is

it’s 4.15 am now…I better go to bed now…I need to wake myself up at 7 am…so….night night

had only one class today
Introduction to English Literature
had a presentation with my trustworthy partner in crime kanzeon
on the Edwardian Era…*hinthintnudgenudge*
for obvious reason on the selection of our topic

after that went to Times Square…
had our lunch at Mr Ramen…
and we talked…
and I talked about being very casual with my pet bro
I mean like hang out in my room
and I don’t really care if my room is messy or whatever I wore…
and how I would be if it’s the guy that I like…
I’ll totally not let him in my room…
or even my house…because I’m afraid….or malu
and
Pattie added that.."or you’re just afraid that you might do something
on the guy…rather than afraid the guy see the mess that you made…"
and then she added the possibilities that what if it’s Eriol…
0_0…Eriol…Eriol…what do you think I would’ve done?…
well I’ll be a super lady and invite him in for a meal…and Pattie added again…"…or him as the meal…"
-_-"….I can’t help but laugh…a seriously wide and loud laugh….
for your information…in case you don’t know…
Hiiragizawa Eriol is a character in Card Captor Sakura…and yes he’s fictional but I am superbly in love with him…
apart from You from GacktJob…

so after the meal…we went to Borders…I bought Twilight...with the different cover…I mean the original cover
since
the one that I gotten for myself before was the other version…the
original is the one with the a pair of hand holding an apple….and the
one that I got was a graphic image of a girl…I like the original
cover better…

Hanged out in Starbucks and read a book and had Caramel Machiatto…
gosh I haven’t had one for like so long…it was last January…that was how long it was…..
and talk and talk….if I write down what we talked about…it’s going to take forever
so let’s leave that part out…and plus you won’t want to know it…
while sitting on the comfortable chair…I look around the bookstore
imagining I own the place…my gosh…the love for books…
it’s a wonderful feeling…to be surrounded by books…
I was telling Pattie how nice it would when you wake up…and see all these books…
okay this maybe for me speaking as a total bookworm…
I’d love top open a bookstore like Borders…
a bookstore with a cafe and loads of couch and chairs for you to read…
I should it a goal for myself…

speaking of books….I am so greedy…
I bought three more books today….
Twilight, Vampire Kisses and A Tale of Time City…
I am planning to give the last book to my cousin Natasha who’s birthday was last Saturday…same with my bro…
she’s nine …so I think the book will be great for her..and it’ll be great for her to start reading English books
and ooh…I booked my Harry Potter book…whee!!!
and made a deal with Pattie too…on what to get for our birthday…
I told her I want Eclipse by Stephenie Meyer…the third sequel for Twilight…totally love…
and she said she wants this book…which is not appropriate for me to mention the title…it’s a secret…:P
this is what happens when two book lovers found each other…
and yes we’re anal when it comes to books…
it had to be in perfect condition…perfect style….perfect size…perfect everything…the joy and love of books

the funny thing about me and books is that…I only started to become a bookworm when I was 12 or 13?
I was an avid and enthusiastic manga and comic reader and still am…from Japan, Hong Kong, Malaysia, Korean…and etc
my
first experience of a story book is real ghost stories…completely
with bad English…as in grammar and word order…but I still love it…
then I moved on to Phantom of the Opera…Lord of the Rings, Harry Potter (I started from book 2 and now I am total fan…and I have everything and I’ve pre-ordered it since book 5)…Jane Austen…Anne Rice…the Bronte Sister…Charles Dickens…then I found Twilight (which
I just happen to pick up…and totally in love with it) and after that
I desperately try to find a book that can compare to it…vampire
themed stories that is…and from there I discovered Karen Robards…Angie Sage…and finally I have my own library where I keep my treasure….I need to clean it up one of these days…and index my books…

books…books…books….and more books….
love love love

so today was the first day of class
after a very very very brief / short / pendek break
my first class was Introduction to English Literature
from the looks of it…I think I will like the class
because it requires alot of reading…heaven for a bookworm
poems, short stories, novels *yay*….Shakespeare… yes Pattie I got it correct now…it’s not ‘pear’…it’s ‘peare’
and I hope what I thought and imagine how this class will be until the end of the semester stays untainted
my second class today was with Mr. Monotone…Introduction to the Ethnography of Communication
I will assure and encourage myself that I will do this…I can do this
no matter how much of a grudge I hold on him
he talked about the rules in his class
and about tardiness
it hit a gut…BIG TIME….because I notice he was looking at me…-_-"…o_o
I am so going to prepare a letter where HE needs to sign whenever I send in any assignments
the good news is that there is no mid term and no classes on the 16th and 23rd…
the bad news is that they’ll be replacement classes…on 14th and 21th…from 2 pm to 6 pm….kill me…
but then after I heard that Pattie, Ranjeetha and Sunny are going to have double replacement classes with him
I feel like I’m not that unfortunate….I will remember you all dearly….
got my marks already…for last semester
thank god all passed….I was almost sure that I can’t pass
Islamic Study being the highest…got a B there…
but seeing the two C’s for ELC2 and Reading & Writing was just heartbreaking…
even though I’m glad I passed
I wished I had done better….I mean come on people
I need A’s….I want A’s….I don’t settle for less…
foundation subjects I don’t really mind….
but would be very lovely if I have gotten an A….
in foundation my best subject was Film & Arts and Business
weird but very interesting….
I need to graduate on top of my class
along with my friends…
I’m decided
when i graduate
I want to wear Kebaya Songket
the finest….so better start losing weight now
to show all my womanly curves….>0<

I didn’t go for the orientation thingy…
I feel extremely guilty
because reason number one…was very sleepy
reason number two….I had my migraines…
of all the times right?
and I don’t like making excuses
and I don’t like to explain myself
hmm…
I didn’t went for both of the days…
I am so sorry….
because I promised and I don’t break my promises….
and my credit was -.00….so…reason behind why not able to message anyone

and today my class was from 9.30 am to 11.00 am and the next class was at 2.00 pm to 4.00 pm
the time in between
I spent it hanging out with Pattie
talking about ECLIPSE…..for three hours and lunch in between
it’s the third book for the highly interesting and super loved by me and her and Lyssa and millions……
TWILIGHT and NEW MOON
and it’s freaking coming out on my birthday day…whee!!!
I should write to the author, Stephenie Meyer about it
and yes…I became really good friends with Pattie because of the book
when we have children in the future I’ll tell my kids  when I inherit the book to them
"me and Aunty Patricia became friends because of this book."
heheheh

コブクロ　「蕾」/ Kobukuro  「Tsubomi」

涙 こぼしても 汗にまみれた笑顔の中じゃ
誰も気付いてはくれない
だから あなたの涙を僕は知らない

絶やす事無く 僕の心に 灯されていた
優しい明かりは あなたがくれた 理由なき愛のあかし

柔らかな日だまりが包む 背中に ポツリ 話しかけながら
いつかこんな日が来る事も
きっと きっと きっと わかってたはずなのに

消えそうに 咲きそうな 蕾が 今年も僕を待ってる
掌じゃ 掴めない 風に踊る花びら
立ち止まる肩にヒラリ
上手に乗せて 笑って見せた あなたを思い出す 一人

ビルの谷間に 埋もれた夢を いつか芽吹いて
花を咲かすだろう 信じた夢は 咲く場所を選ばない

僕等この街に落とされた影法師 みんな 光を探して
重なり合う時の流れも
きっと きっと きっと 追い越せる日が来るさ

風のない 線路道 五月の美空は 青く寂しく
動かない ちぎれ雲 いつまでも浮かべてた
どこにも もう戻れない
僕のようだと ささやく風に キラリ舞い落ちてく 涙

散り際に もう一度 開く花びらは あなたのように
聴こえない 頑張れを 握った両手に 何度もくれた

消えそうに 咲きそうな 蕾が 今年も僕を待ってる
今もまだ 掴めない あなたと描いた夢
立ち止まる 僕のそばで
優しく開く 笑顔のような 蕾を探してる 空に

ムック　「リブラ」

利腕に現実をとり もう片腕に道徳をかざし
胸の奥に愛を灯して 頭の中で天秤にかける

鬱蒼としげる闇の中自分の影を隠すように
汚ねぇ算盤弾く音 鳴り響く世界よ止まれ

感情は邪魔になるだけの世界さ 撃ち殺してくれよ
天秤にかけたのは誰?算盤で弾くのは誰?
ハーメルンの笛吹きは誰?狼少年はいったい誰?
そんなのどうでもいいほど今、君を愛しているよ

花よ今咲き誇れ 僕に教えておくれ
今ここに生きる意味を 明日がくる理由を

利腕に欲望をもち もう片腕に背徳を隠し
胸の奥に愛を閉ざせば 頭の中で聖者が笑う
空き地に咲く健気な花
降り注ぐ光を奪うビルがそびえ建ち
人々はそのビルに目を輝かせ
やがて花は呼吸を止めた
風が只、優しく撫でた
風だけが優しく撫でた

生きる事 其れは何も見えねぇ闇の中をさ迷う様な
死ぬ事 其れもまた闇で終りは決して始まりではない
だからこそ今闇を照らす閃光になるよう生命燃やせ
輝きを放つんだ 生きてる証 儚く強く

花よ今咲き誇れ 君が教えてくれた
今ここに生きる意味を 明日がくるわけを
いつの日か死にゆく僕は 君に何ができるだろう
陽は昇り光を注ぐ永久に この世界に

Romaji lyrics :

MUCC / MUKKU - Libra

kikiude ni genjitsu o tori
mou kataude ni doutoku o kazashi
mune no oku ni ai o tomoshite atama no naka de tenbin ni kakeru
ussou to shigeru yami no naka
jibun no kage o kakusu you ni
kitanai SOROBAN hajiku oto nari hibiku
sekai yo tomare

kanjou wa jama ni naru dake no sekai sa
uchikoroshitekure yo
tenbin ni kaketa no wa dare?
SOROBAN de hajiku no wa dare?
HAAMERUN no fuefuki wa dare?
ookami shounen wa ittai dare?
sonna no doudemo ii hodo
ima kimi o aishiteru yo

hana yo ima sakihokore
boku ni oshiete okure
ima koko ni ikiru imi o
asu ga kuru wake o

kikiude ni yokubou o mochi
mou kataude ni haitoku o kakushi
mune no oku ni ai o tozaseba
atama no naka de seija ga warau
akichi ni saku kenage na hana
furisosogu hikari o ubau BIRU ga sobietachi
hitobito wa sono BIRU ni me o kagayakase
yagate hana wa kokyuu o tometa
kaze ga tada yasashiku nadeta
kaze dake ga yasashiku nareta

ikiru koro sore wa
nani mo mienai yami no naka o samayou you na
shinu koto sore mo mata yami
owari wa keshite hajimari dewa nai
dakara koso ima yami o terasu
saikou ni naru you inochi moyasu
kagayaki o hanatsunda
ikiteru akashi hakanaku tsuyoku

hana yo ima sakihokore
kimi ga oshiete okure
ima koko ni ikiru imi o
asu ga kuru wake o
itsunohika shiniyuku boku wa
kimi ni nani ga dekiru darou
hi wa nobori hikari wo sosogu
towa ni kono sekai ni

アンジェラ・アキ 「サクラ色」/ Angela Aki 「Sakurairo」

川沿いに咲いてた サクラ並木を
共に生きてゆくと 二人で歩いた
世界に飲み込まれ 吐き出されても
ただそばにいたくて もっともっともっと

時間の流れと愛の狭間に落ちて
あなたを失った

恋しくて目を閉じれば
あの頃の二人がいる
サクラ色のあなたを忘れない ずっとずっとずっと

あなたから離れて 自分を知った
夢に近づきたくて もっともっともっと

否定の言葉に押しつぶされても
這い上がり戦い続けた

苦しくて目を閉じれば
あの頃の自分がいる
サクラ色の私を忘れない ずっとずっとずっと

「ふるさと心の中で今でも優しく響くよ」 そんな歌が聴こえる

恋しくて目を閉じれば
あの頃の二人がいる
サクラ色のあなたのことを
サクラ色のわたしのことを
サクラ色の時代を忘れない ずっとずっとずっと
ずっとずっとずっと

first of all to Lyssa…I never knew you read my blog in friendster…:P…and yes totally unrelated…-_-"
to Michelle…hehe I always thought it was Richelle…gomen ne..no I’m not that good in Japanese yet…plus my PC doesn’t have any Japanese software…the IzyNaniMe was written by my friend…but currently I’m taking Japanese class so maybe I wil get a Japanese writing software…so then we can chat chat…:P
to Jess…no worries la…there will always be a next time…yes I know I was so scary even I scared myself when I went to the bathroom to wash my face…

anyways to the real story…I haven’t been updating my blog for like…how long?…I also not sure…but quite sometime also already
been quite busy…that was a lie actually…not busy just that seriously I don’t I have anything to write about
except that I’ve been keeping myself busy with loads of downloads, filling up surveys that I’ve done gazillion times already…re-arranging my room, clean up my room, clean up my library, arranging my books from title and genre…yes when it comes to books and arranging things…I’m a perfectionist…which is somehow hard to believe…but Lyssa knows this…I am a perfectionist just that I’m super lazy and I am also a clean freak…but again too lazy…

to anyone who are fans of Morning Musume of course you know who Goto Maki is right?…
I saw her latest video clips…so I was wondering
I saw something really different about her
her chest…seems to be a cup or two bigger…if you tell me that it’s the push up…you gotta be bluffing…because a push can only do a little boost but not the kind of boost I’m seeing
okay why am I talking about other people’s chest size?
because I have nothing to talk about…:P
and in contrary of that…I’m not even a Morning Musume’s fan
very very unlike me…but hmm
I even listen to Johnny’s now…
that’s a total 180 degrees total difference from the original me

one very funny thing is…I turned Lyssa into an ARASHI fan…
I’m not even a fan
because why?
I let her watch Gokusen
and Matsumoto Jun was in it
and she fell so madly in love with him
so anything everything related to him…is her fandom…I mean completely
even I’m shocked
NANI SHOCKKU! *Akira mode*

my player is playing my old and always favourite song right now…Crawling by Linkin Park…
how much have I changed
from the period how I was such an ice queen…not that I’m not…still am…but somehow I think the ice has become jello…:P
abit jello la…
and ooh now Hunter by Dido…and The Real Folks Blue by Yamane Mai for Cowboy Bepop anime…
the old days where I always go anime hunting with Lyssa
the days when my money will only and always goes to anime related things…or manga
but now…as I grew up…I spent everywhere
being a girl is tough…especially growing up…
hehehe
but not complaining la…
because whe should live life to the fullest

"You should be happy with what you have while working for what you want!"

so how should I start this?
ah the Halloween party
the party that took place last Friday…coincidentally dated on the 13th…for Friday the 13th…
yes that’s the theme and motto for that day
I was actually very very very scared that people won’t turn up but I kept my fingers cross
I was glad and surprise that the party was not bad
it was not bad at all …even though not everything in th eplan got implemented
it was a spankin’ night…I was crowned Ms Frankenstein…when I went up to the hall after I finished my duty
in case you were wondering…my main job in the whole event was Food & Beverages with Sophia
but after some…alteration and some difficulties here and there and bit miscommunication
I was managing the lift…I called my self Ms Grim Reaper
yes in case you’re wondering I am the Grim Reaper’s wife…
but it was really fun…especially when the lift door open and someone was on the other side waiting to get into the lift…
and they screamed….the same guy screamed and jumped twice when he saw me…
actually it was Hendriks and his friends…I love that…call me sadistic and all but I do like scaring people and making people paranoid…yes I know that sounds sick
I don’t really know what happened in the hall throughout almost the entire night
because I was busy scaring and doing my duty as the lift operator…
Richelle and Erik accompanied me…and one more guy…I forgot his name…I am sorry that I don’t remember your name…
Erik was the vampire and Richelle was Sally….with stiches drewn all over her body
Erik was so into character…he kept telling everyone that he’ll be visiting them later that night and suck their blood
imagine that, a vampire, Sally, Ms Reaper and another scary looking guy in the lift…cool
I became so popular that night…I’m like a celebrity for awhile there
Ishi borrowed me her crown…Ms Reaper with a crown…my goodness…now that’s a sight to see
Carmen came in a very cute cocktail dress and rabbit’s ears…she said it was scary looking…-_-"…not scary at all…she’s too cute
the hanuted house that the council did was…really cool
and the ghosts…are really scary…Khanna did a really damn good job…and Sobha look so scary …in sari and she was holding that doll and crying histerically….
I was like…OMG…and Clarissa lie on the table…with a rose and a big paper written with "Rest In Peace"..-_-"
and under the table few people hiding in it…..and starts touching and pullng everyone’s legs….creepy….and it was dark…
Throughout the whole party Patricia kept me updated with the whole event that I missed lah
I was anticipating to watch the thriller dance that the committee members have been practicing for a week….
but I missed it…:(…Pattie said it was really cool…
overall…I think the party was slammin’…
even though a lot of people who promised me they’ll come but didn’t…I was pretty much really happy with everything
and ooh Edward came too…haven’t seen him for like ages….the last time I saw him was at Lyssa & my birthday party…which was like two months ago…
me, Richelle, Erik and Mr freaky toured the whole block C….2nd floor was so scary…
and we went to the ground floor…went into the Nursing museum…Erik said they actually have a corpse in the museum…but all doors were lock so..u know what happened lah
next time if we ever have a halloween party we should do haunted house concept…like really really haunted house type of journey

after we wrapped up the party…me, Carmen, Raj, Pattie, Sree, Minima, Ranji, Nick, Clarissa, Claudine, Vijay…etc…went to the mamak in front of college…had a drink…well three drinks for myself…
and I sent Carmen back to Sg Long…I went back with Pattie…it was 3.45 am. when I arrived home in Nilai…
I persuaded Pattie to come back with me…at first I thought I wanted to stay over at Sophia’s place…
but I thought better I go back home…so arrived home…ngam ngam time for Sahur…
so I cooked something for my dad and bro…

anyways today was my last day of class for this semester…
gosh I won’t be havng class until January…
I want to work
but I want to go for a holiday too!!!
I’m …I feel so tamak…:P
but I am still human!!!!

p/s: Sree, yes let’s go Perhentian with the whole group!!! and create havoc on the Island…
p/s: who wants to go Japan in December….preferably Christmas…I’m in process of persuading my dad to let me go…
p/s: I should undergo intensive Japanese language course and French too
p/s: I love my new phone!!!
p/s: Thank you Pattie…I manage to break that author’s block wall with your help and now I have ideas on what to write and how to continue my story…
p/s: love you lyssa for helping me on loads of things
p/s: Iskan Poyo!
p/s: Sultan Poyo!
p/s: Nani poyo!
p/s: I will turn everyone around me into a Japanese freak…starting with my di di..wahahah
p/s: I know I sound evil